I feel like writing today. I don’t know what I want to say, but I want to feel what its like again. I have fallen far away from where I wanted to be in a spiritual sense… and then again, not so far…. or rather, I’ve come so far toward my dreams in these last months. I wish I could have done it more peacefully. Maybe that’s what I’m feeling. But I have done it. I am doing it. I am living nearly rightfully… something I should remember is I am responsible for this. I have put myself here. I am living dreams I’ve had since I was a kid, a crazy hapless teenager, and that is to be commended!

I am manifesting those dreams, every moment is bringing their manifests closer to my circle of life. I am newly inspired. I am like these people… these almost famous, these folks who are farther along the road than I am. I can be there, though, easily. With focused, methodical (or not necessarily, even) steps in the right direction.

The other day at my acting class, when I was auditing to see if it was indeed something I was looking for, Russell Porter said to me I have a great attitude. I wondered what he meant with that statement, to which ripples, embodiments of my attitude he was referring. He had known me only a collection of minutes and spoken only briefly… so what, then, made him connect to my attitude, key in on it… My little speech on following ones heart and never working, I suppose…. I feel a little sad that its a rare thing for people to encounter such an idealist, uncompromising commitment to living “fully, and completely”. Unabashed. “Unabashedly balling my eyes out.”