“I used to feel so alone in the city. All those gazillions of people and then me, on the outside. Because, how do you meet a new person? I was very stumped by this for many years, and then I realized you just say “Hi.” They may ignore you or they may marry you. And that possibility is worth that one word.” ~Augusten Burroughs

There’s a book I read when I was a kid “Can I Get There From My Room?” All about being bored and not feeling like going out and doing anything. Conflict of interest. Its one I seem to encounter often. “I don’t feel like it.” I know I wont meet anyone new sitting here in my London flat. Yet… here I sit.

There is a butterfly of loneliness flapping away in my heart today… sometimes I think I don’t remember how it all works… its been awhile since the last time I just sauntered up to a guy and asked him what he was doing tomorrow. Who was I being then? Fun, free, unfettered, light. Flirt. Sometimes its so easy and sometimes, with the ones I really think are cute, I get awkward and feel out of place.

“We are blessed, we are loveless, we are cold and we are kind… Everyone’s in everyone’s in everyone’s in everyone.” ~Patrick Park

Today, I’m going to go out, with my guitar. I’m going to busk or I’m just going to ride the tube… not sure. But I’m just going to say “Hi” to people.

“I ache for you. Love’s confusing but it never gets dull.” ~Ben Lee

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