Something happened to me on my drive in to town today, something nearly inexplicable but completely amazing. I suddenly felt powerful, complete, energized and totally loved. I feel like I am glowing. It as if, finally, something in me pulled the curtain aside and let the light in. All the uncertainty and doubt that was rattling around inside with all its threats of ‘not good enough’ has disappeared and I am left with an excited anitcipation in its place. At last I am ready. This feeling is so strong I don’t know how to feel it, I feel like I will come apart, that my body can’t possibly house this much excitement and love. I have noticed over the last few weeks that I get a very intense feeling of excitement when I think about or entertain certain ideas. I am choosing, in this moment, to live my life according to those feelings. Right now it becomes stronger when I think of going to Austin, Texas. It has come up for me quite a few times recently and it feels like the right path. I don’t know what it will be like or what I will do there but that only magnifies this feeling I have. Yesterday at work was a long and tiring one for me, as my friend Michelle said “a doozy”. In spite of that I had so many people come up to me and tell me I was important to them some how, they loved me or thought I was great. Today that energy finally sunk in. Thanks to you all for loving me. I didn’t know, I just didn’t know.